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The arms of those tall squidly humans are flailing about; they occasionally hit the bongo. The liquid turns to blue, I forgot: does this mean it’s poison or that we’ve found an elixir of life?

Here follows the full story. You better sprawl on the sofa accompanied by a fruity beverage.

The forest path led to… I don’t remember. I just want to tell you: there was a truck parked there, at the side of the path. There were tools on the truck’s hindquarters, and a toaster. What the toaster was doing there among the screwdrivers and saws didn’t become clear until after a ponytailed woman came walking up from behind the truck. She had a cap on and a flannel shirt, covered with mud and leaves as well as a light-coloured goo.

“Everything alright?” I asked.

“Oh, Jesus! Go away, okay?”

“What happened?” I made a circling finger pointy gesture at her shirt.

“I smeared pudding on myself.”

She was lying, it occurred to me. She probably did not feel like explaining herself to a creepy guy just randomly showing up on a quiet forest path while he’s carrying a dead cat with a sign around its neck that says “I can has cheezeburger?”

“I’ll be out of your face, but if I can just… I couldn’t help but notice you have a toaster on your truck.”

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“Yes, how else would you warm up grain products?”

Good point. I forgot what I actually answered to that question. All I remember is that a dog came running out of the forest and went straight for this flannel lady, straddling her leg while she hugged his face and confided things to him.

That reminded me of an encounter with a cow. I didn’t want to forget the experience, so I told the woman it.

“You know, I saw a cow this morning. It wasn’t moving much and it was naked. That is a great thing about cows, you know, when you don’t have to watch them all the time because they won’t do anything crazy or wild. They can’t hide anything, and have no interest in hurting you. Except if you scare them with a dog, in which case they’ll trample you to death. You should probably be careful with that. I have a great understanding with cows. I just nod to them, as if to say “Howdy cow, everything grass?” It’s a particularly dumb thing to say, but that came out this morning when I met the cow. I said that. And so… Well, he answers “Meh.” So there, that’s a good way to converse with a cow. That’s all you need. You feel content having inquired after a cow’s state of mind and the cow’s been able to tell something about it. It’s so much better than dancing cows, those are terrible. You know? They might step on your foot or trample a drawing you made that you had just put down for a second, assuming it would be safe on the ground. There aren’t many places in nature to put stuff on or in for safekeeping. That’s one thing that’s interesting about nature.”

She said: “I love Britney Spears. HUGE fan.”

I didn’t quite understand why she would bring it up, or whether she was making fun of me.

I said: “Alright alright, that’s fine. Is that, like, an ironic criticism on the exploitation of our psyche by the marketing rationale in which the images and interests of our mental landscape are formed by the invention and direction of iconic puppets and…”

“No. No, I just really like Britney Spears. I think she’s hot. And her songs are edgy and catchy.”

This caught me off guard. Who says such a thing? Especially a flannel-wearing woman?

“Besides”, she said, “You’re talking in circles.”

“Do the circles intersect?”

“Can I just stop you right there and say you’re annoying me? I’ve got to bring this truck to a garage, cow boy.”

“Oh, that reminds me! I am reminded of… the thing, pets. Yes! Does it ever bug you that you can’t have fruit as a pet? Isn’t that ridiculous! You can tie a string to them and take them for a walk and everything, but they perish. Pretty quickly too. Fruit just doesn’t stay fresh for very long. And fake fruit is just not the same thing.”

Well, that was something she agreed on, at least. Although she did this thing whereby she deliberately screwed up her eyes all higgledy-piggledy, like she was cross-eyed. Then she asked whether I wanted to watch House MD at her friend’s place. I answered that I didn’t, but when she got in the truck she still opened the door for me and told me to get in already. I wasn’t too at ease with some of the sharp tools scattered around her truck, and wondered how badly it would embarrass my family if I got messed up by a flannel-shirted woman, turned into chunky bits by a woman who really adores Britney Spears. Or so she says. With all this pondering we had already arrived at her friend’s place. It was a nice sort of stone/wood/marble place (basically a house made out of several materials) not far from the forest. It looked worn by time, but that gave it a cosy and authentic feel. Honestly, though. I’m not reciting an advert, that’s really what it felt like to me. Cosy and authentic. There was also another dog. It too looked beaten up.

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After the necessary awkward introductions the woman’s friend seemed not too surprised or bothered that I had been brought along. The friend’s name was Eileen. She wanted to watch a film about some French farmer. I liked the beginning where someone tried to grow a plant. I didn’t have the heart to ask Ms. Flannel for her name.

We did watch House after all. It was the House episode where someone dies, I won’t say who. It was over before I knew it, and the hostess offered crunchy biscuits with tomato and some type of cream sauce. When she had been making it in the kitchen Ms. Flannel had joined her and I had overheard them saying: “He’s a smart enough kid, but you know how smart guys are the worst idiots.” I wondered if that was about me.

When House was over, Ms Flannel said: “Just so you know, there isn’t going to be any weird lesbian stuff or anything, alright?”

“What?”

“We’re not going to make out with each other or seduce you and have a threesome. You need to be aware of that.”

“What?”

I was allowed to stay the night and I had nothing to go back to, so I stayed. A night of many dreams left not a trace of them, not a nebulous image, when in the morning the croissants were aglow, the jam was sweet and the oranges transmutated happily into enlivening juice. Outside we inhaled a sky, fresh on the respiratory tracks, a morning in the mind. Truly a different state of affairs from ramblings about cows and fruit. There was a hill at the back of the house, with wild overgrowth, a place to look out across the expanse, and we climbed towards it.

In one version of this tale we’re in awe of the view, a few lights still on in the town in the distance, we’re making merry about getting lost among little streams and juniper bushes and open areas of soft sand and sparse islands of trees. In a different version I’m arguing with the women about the aquarium. They were of the opinion we should go there, have coffee and then go look at the fish, and then have some more coffee. I like fish, but not coffee. I suggested I have tea myself, but they were not to be persuaded; all three of us should have coffee in their opinion or it wouldn’t be right.

This morning, as said, the croissants are aglow, the jam is sweet, the butter salty and the oranges fresh. We inhale a new sky, as said, fresh of each other and the morning. The night left no nebulous traces, as mentioned before, but was dormant in our mind. There is naught but the table and the mountain, the plateaus around which we wander.

Lisa, turned out to be Ms. Flannel’s name. Later, when we were at the aquarium after all, I said: “Lisa, your eye is dangling from your bag.” Her eyelashes hung like oil-drenched wings from her handbag. A drop of mascara attempted the jump and regretfully splashed apart on the floor. With a last exertion it wrote ‘help’, but too small to be noticed by anyone. The droplet had no advance knowledge of this, which is so often the source of one’s downfall.

“What do you mean by that?” she replied to my initial comment about her dangling eye, and pinched her empty eye sockets. A man at a piano added a D minor. Genius. This same man would later blow my mind by telling me that it is a necessary fact that at some point it has been the Winter Solstice in 147 AD, and that somewhere on that very day it must have been half 1 in the afternoon, and that sheep already existed. Who knows what that could have meant on that day. And that was the genius of this man. He could, with a single tone, invoke an entire world and let your mind fill it up.

Lisa was still staring at me.

I remember she asked me something, but what was it?

“I said, what the hell is that supposed to mean?”

Of the mist that I can see scrambling up from the water, of that mist I know this: it won’t pass through the walls. Mist cannot do that. But of myself I do not know if walls can keep me here. I don’t remember why I said that Lisa’s eyeball was dangling from her bag. Most female apparitions in this place carry a bag in one form or another, but not Lisa. Lisa never used one. She did have an iguana as a pet. And a healthy pair of green eyes. But no handbag.

“It was just nonsense, Lisa. Who knows that someday I might say something of value, so I’m in the habit of just saying everything.”

She looked at me searchingly and then brushed past me, up the stairs to the fish nursery.

Suddenly it occurs to me that the pianist probably wasn’t Russian. Why had I assumed he was Russian, or even a pianist? I decide to go to the toilets, behind the stairs. Thank goodness, no-one is there. From my backpack I take two of those giant orange witches hats. The giant orange pawns, what do you call them, and striped tape. I bar the toilet for ‘construction work’ and go into a stall with The brothers Karamazov by Dostoyevsky. I fill the pot to the brim with toilet paper and peacefully start work on the next letter in the alphabet. Where was I? The L, right, that one’s easy peasy.

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Before I’ve finished reading the slogans and conversations on the stall door, twenty minutes have already passed and I decide not to open the book. Packing the cones back in my backpack, I feel a hand on my shoulder. Another hand bounces by across the floor and comes to a screeching halt. A flake of nail polish attempts the jump and regretfully lands on its back on the floor. With a last exertion I whisper ‘help, I’m stuck in a reality that just keeps going’.